well, it's not that dead, only 2 weeks plus didn't update:/ too busy with integrated assignment. let me try to recall what happen._.

2 saturdays ago, which was 31st Jan, went to Lot 1 with carol n her sis to SHINee but it was an utter failure-.- couldn't get into the first 1000 > couldn't get to the roof garden > no SHINee album > no autograph and couldn't get to see SHINee D: reached at 8 plus in the morning to find the whole space outside Lot 1 flooded with SHINee fans._. was squashed like crazy and could hardly breathed. seriously, though i'm this tall, i still couldn't get much fresh air-.- that's why i want to be taller. then we decided to went to carpark to wait for them since they got to leave the place. waited for a while and heard fangirls screaming and running so we followed. well, i got see a little of onew, which is better than nothing:)) when the cars/vans left the carpark, everybody was chasing after the cars/vans. the whole running thing was so much worse than nafa 2.4km._. my reaction was kind of slow that day due to lack of sleep accumulating since school starts. carol's sis suddenly ran to chase them > carol chase her sis > i was 'oh?!" a while then i started chasing the 2 of them._. then later in the night, was having a mass conversation in msn with other SHINee fans that went to Lot 1 too and we were like ranting away about what happened. but i managed to make a few new friends through the conversation though i'm like the 2nd oldest among the 6 of us. i felt old._.

after that all i can remember was doing the integrated assignment. some stuffs happened and had me thinking for one night. that's also the first time in my life i gotten so angry, pissed off, frustrated, disappointed and worried that i almost exploded and wanted to break the chopsticks while i was having my dinner._. i never experienced so much of these feelings at one go that i felt very fucked up. even how stressed i was back in secondary school, especially during the o level period, i never had these feelings. maybe because i knew that i just had to tolerate it and it will be over soon, and my friends and family are there for me and i'm here for my friends too. after entering poly, the amount of stress is even more now but still i know that this amount of stress that i'm facing right now is probably chicken feet to what i will face when i step into the working industry as there will also be the 'office politics' where there will be invisible arrows flying everywhere. and also there's my friends, who i know in poly, are there to support each other. it got me to think what is my own definition of friends. i'm thankful to all the friends i have know so far as they make up a huge part of my life, especially Sixes and my poly peeps(aish, we don't have a group name:/) THANK YOU :D

alright, off to do my IE1 portfolio. it's due this week D: